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Getting Back ON Track

A Brief Description of What This Letter Is About:

            I have reached a low in my life. That is putting it simply as possible. Below a ways down in this letter is a written account to my Doctors as well as the internet telling of my personal story of Nootropics, both my highs and lows points with it. Just below this is a templet a friend gave me that should help with communication with my Med’s Doctor (Psychiatrist). I have been diagnosed Bipolar and Schizophrenic or at least tendencies towards these. I hope with further evaluation to be cleared of theses diagnosis.

With that said… with how much there is to write I will be releasing portions as blog posts here and posting YouTube Videos here as well. I do plan to document this experience in full including interviews with friends ect.

Notes:

1) Mother is now my Legal Guardian

2) Not permitted to drive

3) Supposed to avoid the sun

4) Not permitted to work atm

5) No nootropics :(

6) Avoiding Sugar, Garlic and Processed foods for now. Still plan to get 100% bulletproof!

As of Aug 15^th, 2015, I am unhappy with my meds. I find it quite hard to sit still very long and am very anxious most of the time. Finding myself walking most of my days to let this energy out, spending many hours in the hot sun against my doctors’ orders just to find release. I would love to follow my dr. request but “cant” on this one. Sometimes, like when its being Missouri I would rather be inside writing on my pc. I love to write but theses current medications are making it complicated. However, this all being said I do not want walking taken away by any means. It is a stifling important freedom to me! (It is when I work out most of my issues; thought experiments and such plus it’s fun to do with friends. I have had many great “Walks & Talks” with friends and continue to have them).

At this point, it is important to note I am released form a psychiatric ward July 20^th 2015: picked up by ambulance on July 1^st 2015. I was readmitted not to the ward but hospital after an “overdose” of Haloperidol at 10mg on July 26^th 2015. The allergic reaction started on July 23rd. I was relased home under my mothers care on Aug 6th 2015.

I would like to be removed off my antidepressant as a start with for various reasons. I am no longer depressed all my stressors that lead to my break down are gone as well as new friend ships made and old ones that were unhealthy for me acquitted. This is my simple request for my first visit to my Med’s Doctor.

TIPS GIVEN TO ME BY A FRIEND

Write what you want to say regarding what you want to happen, ie: goals.
* End goal is to be med free or on a path to that goal
* Spent the last 4 years self-medicating. Would like a chance to have my     system to be clear of drugs and nootropics alike for a while!
* I understand it may be a long path up too two year
* Want right to work back when I am ready
* Want freedom to drive back so I can get my old job back ($9h)

1.      Write down all the questions you want answers too. What is the validity of this medicine?  What side effects, when I can come off/weaned off and what can happen if so.

(Below is my templet that I will be taking in with me to my Med’s Dr. to fill out. The side is where I write my questions. And the inner portion where I take my notes)

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____________* DIVALPROEX | 500MG BED TIME | BIPOLAR MEDICATION

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____________* QUETIAPINE | 1MG BED TIME| SCHIZOPHRENIA

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____________* BENZTROPINE | 30MG MORN & BED | FOR SIDEFECS OF MEDS ABOVE

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____________* MIRTAZAPINE | 15mg BED TIME | ANTIDEPRESANT

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____________* LORAZEPAM | 1MG 3 TIMES A DAY AS NEEDED | ANIXYIETY

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2.      I am a Biohacker; I understand that if medication has to be part of the regimen that eventually I want to come to a place where I am not on medicine if that is at all possible.

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3.      What if the medicine is making me sick and feel as though I am able to function.

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4.      You need to be compliant and not defiant but at the same time be very clear and concise keep it as stupid simple as you can make it. Think of how direct you can be in just under 10 words.  The more information that you give and run on sentences can sometimes make people appear to be manic or hyperactive so try to keep it simple as possible.

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My Short Version of the Letter to LongeCity, YouTube & Doctors. I will be making a full account that will be several pages of text but no time for that now; one day at a time.

§  I had an episode knowingly so: Sunifiram, + 110lb/BMI 15.3 , Cannabis (will make a post on this in time), Lack of Healthy Friendships, Jobless on purpose, Kicked out of Parents House & living on Cousin’s Couch etc….. I was doing everything I could do to scream out for help. I knew I was running my car to the empty. Had I know the consequences I would have behaved much differently. Gotten gas and went to sleep after being awake going on 4 days. Nevertheless, to my fault the episode got out of control; Psychosis became my initial diagnosis. I at first hated what they did to me in the Ward. Though now it seems to have worked, getting the help I needed a kick in the pants about life.

§  For the last two years after leaving high school, I have been chasing something. Finding myself again after a toxicity issue between drinking large volumes of diet lemonade and Piracetam dosing over the course 2 years* (will have the dates and a much more detailed explanation in a future post).

§  I admit to knowingly chasing mania in various forms to aid me in getting “projects” done. I have found what I was really trying to get was what’s called FLOW STATES of the mind. I have been taking supplements, herbs, research compounds, use of laser, sounds, ect., to tinker with my mental workings since my second year of high school. Which are all amazing things that work!!! However, as is it is with all things, maturity must be applied its half the battle. And this year I had found myself on a bad path due to poor choices. I am now the person I want to be and its not thanks to the meds I am on but because I have chosen to do what I want in life and putting my full efforts two it. I have learned so much more from being wrong then I have ever from being right. END RANT!

Well it’s a start :) And I will be writing out a full account of my “life” surrounding: Nootropics, My personal life, as well as this diagnosis and whatever else finds its way into it. I will be releasing “chapters” as I have them completed.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wmx_35rQIRg
LOVE THIS GUY AND HIS MESSAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!